This week in 2007 Amy Winehouse was No. 1 with her enormous album ‘Back to Black’ which brings such bittersweet memories of this girl who was stolen from the world. Reflecting back on her documentary it makes you want to kick that shit in the head.
Took in the Amy Winehouse documentary this weekend and was blown away by the depth of her voice and it rattles you to your bones to know that it comes from somewhere ultimately divine. So many beautiful pictures of her in living colour adorning the costume she wore but yet unsettling to see the physical contradiction as she changed from a healthy full of life teenager, to a scrawny bulimic body with breasts paid for with her Hidden Treasures from Back to Black.
It saddens the soul to watch a life crumble at the hands of instant gratification and a circle of people who did not care enough to say ‘No, I will not sit and watch you kill yourself.’
Amy was born full of life and ready to challenge the world. She possessed a vibrant personality that drew the people around her in and made them feel special in her presence, herself becoming as a sacrificial lamb when her addictive personality began to swim in a sea of money. There also lurked those feeding off of her and unfortunately in those shallow murky waters one is not able to see clearly. She loved Blake Fielder and he loved her money and it’s a disturbing piece of the puzzle in Amy’s life.
Usually the right thing and the hardest thing are the same thing and Amy’s father had the capability to shut this business down and protect his daughter allowing her a safe harbour to get clean, healthy and strong. In the end she may have still chosen her outcome, but at least she would of had a fighting chance to win this battle.
A pivotal moment for thought occurred during a clear spell, when Amy won her grammy and confided to her friend ‘this is just no fun without the drugs.’ How sad to be experiencing the biggest moments of your life thus far, yet unable to feel anything. What does this do to a body and soul and why does anyone ever choose to go down that road when it steals so much from you rendering you null and void of all the beautiful things going on around you.
At times it makes you frustrated to think that while everyone else is checking out the rest of us are left to see, feel and live the realities of life. We are not any different than any one else, except for the fact that we deal with it.
Life can punch you pretty damn hard and it has the ability to bend us but we must not give it the power to break us. The truth is you can not get around what you’ve got to go through. No one said life was easy but anything worth keeping is worth working for. Keep your eyes clear and let the body be filled with light and keep going until you find your way home.